What the hell is wrong with me!? Anyone Please!?
Sunday ~ March 03, 2010
I posted this the other night. I have been thinking a lot lately about what is possibly wrong with me. Now, I think I'm starting to have some idea. As I said before, I have always been in good mental health. I've been social and compassionate towards others my entire life. Now, all I do is worry that I'm becoming a psychopath. I constantly worry that I'm going to lose control of myself and kill someone. I find that when I'm not focusing on my issues, I feel good, and I feel normal again. I think it all has to do with a strange thinking pattern I've fallen into. Whenever I have an emotion, such as the thought of being a compassionate person or being emotionally connected with my family, I think that that's just how I'm trained to react. I feel as if my emotions are not my own, and that I am trapped. I feel as if life is just a big attempt to become happy, and, in some terrifying way, I have become aware of this and essentially died inside. I think this is why I constantly worry about losing control, and why I always think I am becoming a psychopath. I know deep down that I would never do this, but anymore I just feel dead inside because of this negative thinking cycle. I feel as though I am just a zombie. Could this be a chemical thing? What do I do? All I ever do is obsess over this!
good luck!
its all a scam for money and to make you like a robot
its normal to go a little crazy sometimes
you dont sound crazy it sounds like alot of anxiety or ocd
www.anxietyzone.com
is a good website for support and to talk to other people like you
